Set a fire

So I'm traveling via bus. Alone.  I hate alone. Not that I can't be alone.  But I hate doing things alone. I recall a movie where the premise was a life unwitnessed.  Its my fear I will live that life sometimes. I have done so much of my life alone.  Waiting to share. Wishing I could have someone witness my life. And I'm back here again.  I just want someone to remember I'm alive.  It's the annoying part of being human. And a woman apparently. And admitting your human.   Part of me just wants to be part machine.  Nothing bothers me I don't care about human  experiences and mostly, don't get hurt. But I can't.   I feel like Bones, i need things to be rational and reasonable. But that is not how it works. And Bones eventually got her Booth.  And she had Angela.  And I have lots of her.  Cause Booth, well........I dont think i would survive Booth.
Then, there is the part of me that is sitting still and has time to think.  The freaky nomad hippy artist.  She's winning tonight so hence the blog.   So.
Couple weeks ago was rough.  Rough enough that the escape plan was initiated. As in dissapear.
The city girl diva wants polished perfection.   The hippy Farm girl wants a cabin in the woods next to a lake living off the earth shoeless. I know.  Me. Shoeless.
So the point.
Ok so I blogged about being a diva.  And I've been a bit of one as of late.  nd thank you to all who have endured that crazy person.   Tonight's inspiration brought to you by Adel and "one and only"
It's not easy giving up your heart.  She sings this line " let me be your one and only " and "give me a chance I promise I'm worth it"
I used to feel " please just give me a chance. I'm weird but worth it."
Girls.  No body is perfect.  Don't be a doormat.   Don't think he is your last chance.  Cause he will be your end.  You gave up and settled for someone you will always feel did you a favour This works for guys as well.   And possibly more sad.
"I dare you". Ok this line I get.   I dare you.  Prove it.  Don't play games.  If you mean it.   Mean it.
So this is where my diva phase has brought me.
 I'm worth it.  Ill prove it over time. Show me your worth it. My heart is worth it.

And if the other person can't see that......  They are not worth it, will never get you, and you need to move on!