One of my kiddos asked me this this week. I laughed. No.
I'm so excited.
Its been a while since I have written. And I just needed to sit on some things. I'm going to do my best to make this as non churchy as possible. And I hope you get my heart and love.
Every season of my life I've felt like I was there for someone else. I was needed. Someone needed something from me. And that's who I am. That's what I love doing. And my time of getting what I needed was coming one day.
My first marriage ending was like a cannon ball of its time for you. Lots of hard lessons and learning and growing. And making time for me.
And then I met Kendall. His family keeps telling me they prayed for me.
But I prayed for him. And them.
I never got why people are worried about in laws. Mine are awesome.
The church saying is that what is taken away is returned with more. And it feels like every once of energy I poured into being there for someone has come back to me. Please understand this isn't me being all "o look at me" but if you have been there you know.
I never thought someone would be in love with me. Or life could be what I saw in my dreams. But it's happening. From the annoying parts of my job to the dog greeting me at the farm in the morning. To Kendall making me a huge garden to having a sun room. But Kendall loves me. And that may be a duh for some people. But to know and feel his love. It's so amazing.
I recently had the pleasure of a wedding shower thrown for me. And it's not like I needed one. But the act of people getting together to celebrate this time in my life. I needed this. It sounds funny but I need to let people love me. I used to push people away. I didn't want them close. But I'm finding this part of healing is just letting people love you. And sometimes you wonder if people do care. Or see that you need people. And I am so honoured to be the reliever of that love.
I'm so grateful God looks past mistakes
I'm grateful for His love
I'm so grateful that I have this life.
I'm so thankful for the friends and family who stuck with me through all this.
And I'm so grateful for Kendall.
I love you.
And my blue kitchen. :)
